*sighs in ecstasy*

[constance]

Regarding the very important matter of My Hair:

I've been growing it out for a year or two now, and for the last six months or so I've been toying with the idea of cutting it all off. Not because it looked particularly bad (because it looked fine), and not because it was particularly hard to deal with (because it wasn't); I could never put my finger on why I wanted it short, exactly, never come up with a good reason for cutting it short. I mean, it's convenient to have hair long enough to get out of your way with rubber bands! It's satisfying to grab your hair and lift your arms up as far as you can and still be holding your hair (I do not know why this is so satisfying, but it really, really is)! And it turns out that when one takes care of one's cinnamon-colored hair, it stays cinnamon-colored, rather than bleaching out to an unflattering apricot color on the ends! And so it kept growing, and I kept looking in the mirror and thinking, I really should get it cut off, and I kept not getting it cut off.

And then this morning I got up and was running errands, and I drove past the place I get my hair cut, and thought, hey, I could use a trim, and went inside to see if my hairdresser was (1) there and (2) accepting walk-ins, and she (1) was and (2) was, and so I got my hair shampooed and then when she asked what I wanted, instead of saying that I wanted a trim, I heard myself saying that I wanted my old short bob back. And as soon as I said it, I knew that it was the right thing to do. And she chopped off enough to ship off to Locks of Love, and shaped it up, and when it was all blown out and styled and she let me put my glasses back on (I can never tell what I'm getting till it's over, because my eyesight's so terrible), I suddenly knew why I kept thinking for those months that I needed to get my hair chopped off. It was because it wasn't me, that person with hair down her back, it was someone else, someone whose hair was kind of nice and who could put it up to get it out of her way. As soon as I saw my familiar face with my familiar hair in the mirror, I went all shivery with delight and recognition. My hairdresser probably thought I was crazy, I was so happy with that haircut.

I'm glad to have me back. Can you tell?

Comments

[tilney.livejournal.com]

Can we has photos PLZ?

[tofty.livejournal.com]

[somniesperus.livejournal.com]

YOU ARE ADORABLE.

And funnily enough, I felt the same way about growing my hair out really long! I do not know why. I've never had long hair in my life. And I had it pixie-cut short for like five or six years. But now I look at my long hair in the mirror and think, "Yeah, this is me." Isn't it weird how that happens?

Anyway. To repeat: ADORABLE.

[coco-palmolive.livejournal.com]

I cannot believe how long it has been since I saw you last because this is the hair I remember on you. When I got to the line about being able to hold on to your hair with your arms fully extended, I was flabbergasted. I'm sorry there isn't a BEFORE shot. Nonetheless, you are right, that's your haircut, and I am only a teensy bit jealous of the very deserving person who is going to end up wearing your red hair around.

[bowdlerized.livejournal.com]

I LOVE IT! IT LOOKS AWESOME!

You look really nice and glowy-skinned! :D

[kickthebeat.livejournal.com]

there you are! ♥

[xanthophyllippa.livejournal.com]

I read this post with growing horror until I came to your mention of Locks of Love and then immediately felt a wave of relief rush over me. I am very glad there was donation involved, which is what I plan to do* when I have my hair (below-the-waist, blonde, wavy) hair cut. Whenever that might be.

* although I plan to donate to an organization that does wigs for adult women...when I find one, that is.

[tofty.livejournal.com]

Surely there is one! I can't believe there wouldn't be. And whoever gets that long, blonde, wavy hair will be very lucky indeed!

[octoberstory.livejournal.com]

YayaYAYAYaAyayAYAyYAY! :D Oh, a short cut just feels so good! I bet you look ever so smart. I haven't read the thread yet, so I'm sure I'm just echoing everyone else, but--PICS PLEASE.

BTW: TOTALLY unrelated note: You know how you kept meaning to get a haircut? Well, I have kept meaning to tell you how much I adored the Little Britain discs you burned for me. I watched all the episodes in two long sittings!

[octoberstory.livejournal.com]

OH LOOK a picture! Never mind. :X

[tofty.livejournal.com]

:O I still need to send you the rest of LB, don't I! I wanted to send you Firefly too, at the same time. You can expect them in, say, the year 2009. :/ I wish I didn't suck so bad at mail.

[21stcenturysei.livejournal.com]

I'm in coco's mental space: I can't believe it's been so long since I've seen you that you had hair-forever-long and I didn't even know! But I'm glad to contribute to the "how cute and happy you look" lovefest. You look adorable and happy...and that makes me happy, so thanks!

[tofty.livejournal.com]

OH MY GOD IT IS YOU. Are you working for the Govt yet? Because I totally talked you up to the feds when they came to see me, man, and I'd hate to think all that praise went for nothing!

Thanks, though! It has been a long time, and one day I will have enough spare money to wend my way to your haunted apartment. I hope.

[ainsley.livejournal.com]

Yay for haircut that is YOU! Because you is awesome and needs hair that reinforces you in feeling that way.

I'm fighting with mine to find my hairstyle. I think it's going to go wild and crazy if it gets much shorter, and I think I want it much shorter, just not if it requires effort to apply sanity.

I'm glad you have you back.

[tofty.livejournal.com]

I'm glad to be back, man! Did I say that? XD

Finding the right hairstyle is such a struggle -- it took me years to find it -- that I'm surprised I ever tried to grow it out in the first place. I'll keep my fingers crossed that you end up with the hair that is sublimely perfect for you.

[imkalena.livejournal.com]

That's excellent! I'm so glad you lost some hair and regained your own image. :)

[imkalena.livejournal.com]

Oh! I didn't realize there was a photo. I like it, you look adorable. But I probably would have liked it long, too.

[amelia-eve.livejournal.com]

You are so damn cute and also you look really happy. I am glad to read a happy post from you since it seems to have been a not-so-happy summer for you.

As for looking like onseself, I only feel like the real me with long hair, and I do like all the things I can do with it, but best of all I like that I do not have to do anything if I don't want to. I hate, hate, hate hairspray and goop and styling product because I want my hair to feel good more than I want it to look good.

My mom was blonde as a child but darkened to medium brown as she grew up. When her hair went gray, she said she had a shock of recognition because in her secret heart she still always thought of herself with light hair.

[tofty.livejournal.com]

The same right back at you, my dear. Thank goodness we're still standing, and smiling in our photos.

I totally agree with all those things you say about hair -- even the part where you say that longer hair is really just so easy! That said, though, I haven't missed my longer hair even a little bit since Saturday, and at least this haircut's not a hard one to maintain.

[friendly.livejournal.com]

THERE YOU ARE! I can't, in fact, imagine you with any other hair. ♥

[tofty.livejournal.com]

It turns out that I couldn't either! :O

I almost forgot!

[tofty.livejournal.com]

♥

[laurelwood.livejournal.com]

I think that really is the perfect haircut for you. You look beautiful and radiant all rolled into one. All this time, I know you've been growing it out (I had no idea it had gotten long enough for the arms-fully-extended-and-still-holding-onto-hair test!) but my mind's eye persists in giving you shorter hair. And now it's true! I'm so pleased that rediscovering the "you" haircut gave you so much delight. It must be a great feeling to go with the great look.

You've also helped me put my finger on one of the reasons I've always been uneasy with my long hair. It really does feel like a disguise to me. At least you, I presume (because I can't imagine you being prone to peer pressure) grew yours out for your own benefit, whereas I was sort of coerced into it by friends who didn't find my "too butch" short hair flattering. And you know, maybe they were right. I wish I could discover my perfect-for-me haircut!

Gorgeous new layout, by the way! You always find the loveliest background patterns.

[tofty.livejournal.com]

Your saying it feels like a disguise: that is exactly right! :O I remember your post from a while back, about working up to getting your hair cut, and I take it that it's still long? I think you'd look great with short hair -- you just have that sort of face -- but as it happens, I like you with long hair too.

You'd think the Perfect Haircut would be easier to find, but God. It's easier, I think, to find perfect jeans, or a swimsuit that doesn't make you want to bury yourself in the sand. Maybe because you can try those things on for size, and you're stuck with your haircuts for a while?

[tofty.livejournal.com]

Oh, and thanks -- I like my background too! It's another vintage wallpaper pattern. I think I'll be able to keep myself going for years on that website. :D