I am too tired to think of a subject line.
Apr. 6th, 2005 10:41 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
constanceThere is this single moment in sex, lies, and videotape, where Andie MacDowell touches James Spader's shoulder from behind, and James Spader closes his eyes in response, and I am completely spellbound by that moment. It is one of the sexiest moments in cinematic history, for me.
I am just tired. I am too tired to think. I am so tired that I'll find myself standing in the middle of a room for ten minutes and not know why.
I am too tired to sleep. And so :
last cigarette: wow. maybe about twelve years ago? i used to light cigarettes when i was drunk and try to hang them from my lip james-dean-style. i never really smoked them, though.
last good cry: it has been a little while now, maybe a couple of months.
last library book checked out: the glass castle by jeanette walls
last movie seen: I am watching sex, lies and videotape now, remember?
last book read: extremely loud and incredibly close by jonathan safran foer
last cuss word uttered: motherfuck
last beverage drunk: diet pepsi, sitting at my elbow
last food consumed: bottlecaps
last phone call: this afternoon, to a woman named dixie
last tv show watched: jeopardy, with my parents on monday night
last shoes worn: black lowback mary janes
last cd played: elliot smith
last item bought: salad and diet pepsi at arby's
last downloaded: a bunch of images from explodingdog. i have a plan.
last annoyance: macon drivers omg
last disappointment: i had a friend, it didn't work out
last soda drunk: diet pepsi goddamn it how many times do i have to say
last thing handwritten: to-do list for work tomorrow
last word spoken: sweetie
last sleep: last night
last im: last week, with![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
bowdlerized and somniesperus. I am easing slowly back into im, and it still feels odd after my long hiatus
last weird encounter: ummmm...
last ice cream eaten: a cherry-chocolate-chip milkshake from sonic on valentine's day yes this counts
last amused: by next-door neighbor's puppy
last time wanting to die: no one wants to hear the answer to this question
last time hugged: i am not particularly huggable. my mom is about the only person who dares to breach my personal space.
last chair sat in: office chair
last lipstick used: burt's bees color nutmeg
last shirt worn: blue t-shirt
last poster looked at: huh? i saw an orlando bloom poster at kmart the other day,
last webpage visited: amazon.com
current clothes: blue t-shirt and blue striped pajama bottoms
current mood: t-i-r-e-d, remember?
current music: andie macdowell
current taste: d.i.e.t. p.e.p.s.i. -_-
current hair: reddish brown. bob. a bit messy and flippy.
current smell: cucumber-melon lotion
current thing I should be doing: unpacking
current desktop picture: mary grandpre illustration of harry potter and remus lupin
1. What do you most like about your body? my hair
2. And least? my stomach
3. How many fillings do you have? a lot. it is all the diet pepsi and bottlecaps.
4. Do you think you're good looking? no
5. Do other people tell you that you're good looking? just the ones who love me
ARE YOU...
Understanding: i try to be
Open-minded: yes
Arrogant: sometimes
Insecure: hideously
Interesting: no
Random: i think mandarin oranges are kind of gross, but i like just about any other citrus.
Hungry: no, actually i feel a little sick
Friendly: yes
Smart: sometimes
Moody: sometimes
Independent: yes
Hard working: when i'm interested in the work, or when someone expects me to be working
Organized: in theory more than in practice
Healthy: yes
Emotionally Stable: more so now than in a little while
Shy: oh yes
Difficult: intermittently
Attractive: not unattactive
Bored Easily: no
Messy: sometimes
Thirsty: almost always
Responsible: depends on who you're asking
Obsessed: not at the moment
Angry: ditto
Sad: always, somewhere in the background
Happy: usually, somewhere in the background
Hyper: no
Trusting: yes and no
Talkative: not in the least
What does your name mean? beautiful ceremonial attendant by white water
How old are you? 35
How old are you mentally (as in are you mature?)? no one over the age of 30 should have to answer this question.
How long does it take you to get ready in the morning? 45 minutes if i have to take a shower, 30 if i don't. this includes all pet-related activities.
SLEEP
Do you dream at night? sometimes
Do you remember your dreams? rarely
Describe one. i can't remember any right now!
What time do you go to bed usually? between 12 and 1
What time do you wake up normally? between 6 and 7
What time do you wake on weekends? about 8
Do you find waking late nice or annoying? NICE but it hardly ever happens, any more
Do you sleep with one pillow or two? one for my head, one along my back or side
FRIENDS
Do you have heaps of friends? no
Do you have a best friend? mmmaybe
Do you have more guy friends or more girl friends? i used to have more guy friends, but now it's almost all girls
Do you ever get annoyed at any friends? certainly
Have you ever lied to a friend? yes :/
Have you ever stolen a friends boyfriend/girlfriend? hahaha, as if i would be capable
MORALS
Have you ever been drunk? yes
Stolen? from the office yes what can i say i am addicted to that white-out tape
Shoplifted? when i was four or five
Tried to commit suicide? no
Lied to a boyfriend or girlfriend? no
Gotten into a fight? not since my brother grew taller than me :s
Would you date a drug addict? i don't even know how to go about meeting one
Have you ever had to look after someone who was a drug addict? yes--a drunk, anyway
Are you racist? i like to think i am not
Are you discriminatory to anyone? ditto
Have you been a hypocrite in the past? yes
MEDIA
Do you watch tons of tv? not tons, no.
How many times have you been to the movies in the past 6 months? not as often as i'd like to've
Do you listen to the radio often? yes, in the car and i listen to radio tradescant at work. it is nice, having your own radio station.
Do you read the newspaper? online, yes, and sunday, yes
Do you read magazines? yes
Are you a couch potato? yes
Do you use the internet too much? yes
MUSIC
What's your fave style of music? i like lots, but i guess americana. or maybe "indie" which surely covers a lot of ground.
Do you play an instrument? tambourine :D
Do you sing? not in public. except for "don gato," of course
PERSONALITY
Are you funny or serious? serious
Creative? sometimes
Logical thinker orlateral thinker? depends.
Are you outgoing or shy? shy.
Are you lazy or active? lazy. Haven't I answered these?
Have you ever been hyperactive? no!
Are you a naturally hyperactive person? n-o!!
LOOKS
Are you happy with the way you look? eh.
What would you change? oh where to start? my weight, i guess.
Do you wear makeup regularly? yes, but very light makeup. powder, mascara, lip balm.
Do you have a large wardrobe? embarrassingly so
MONEY
Do you have a job? yes, i have two
Do you like it? yes, mostly
Are you a saver or a spender? more spendy than savey, i think, but i'm not excessive in either direction
Do you work hard or slack off? depends
Have you ever been fired? yes--or laid off, anyway
In trouble at work? yes
Made a major mistake? at work? yes
Ever had money stolen from you? yes
EMBARRASSING MOMENTS
Your all time most embarrassing moment? too many to count!
Ever giggled like an idiot? all the time
Ever embarassed yourself and pretended nothing happened? nah, i usually just laugh about it
Ever tripped in front of someone you liked? when have i not done this? if i ever meet you, i will trip in front of you, sooner or later.
Ever said something really stupid? all the time
Ever snorted while laughing? yes
Ever fallen off a bed? yes
Ever sleepwalked? yes, apparently
Ever sleeptalked? so i'm told
I am just tired. I am too tired to think. I am so tired that I'll find myself standing in the middle of a room for ten minutes and not know why.
I am too tired to sleep. And so :
last cigarette: wow. maybe about twelve years ago? i used to light cigarettes when i was drunk and try to hang them from my lip james-dean-style. i never really smoked them, though.
last good cry: it has been a little while now, maybe a couple of months.
last library book checked out: the glass castle by jeanette walls
last movie seen: I am watching sex, lies and videotape now, remember?
last book read: extremely loud and incredibly close by jonathan safran foer
last cuss word uttered: motherfuck
last beverage drunk: diet pepsi, sitting at my elbow
last food consumed: bottlecaps
last phone call: this afternoon, to a woman named dixie
last tv show watched: jeopardy, with my parents on monday night
last shoes worn: black lowback mary janes
last cd played: elliot smith
last item bought: salad and diet pepsi at arby's
last downloaded: a bunch of images from explodingdog. i have a plan.
last annoyance: macon drivers omg
last disappointment: i had a friend, it didn't work out
last soda drunk: diet pepsi goddamn it how many times do i have to say
last thing handwritten: to-do list for work tomorrow
last word spoken: sweetie
last sleep: last night
last im: last week, with
bowdlerized and somniesperus. I am easing slowly back into im, and it still feels odd after my long hiatuslast weird encounter: ummmm...
last ice cream eaten: a cherry-chocolate-chip milkshake from sonic on valentine's day yes this counts
last amused: by next-door neighbor's puppy
last time wanting to die: no one wants to hear the answer to this question
last time hugged: i am not particularly huggable. my mom is about the only person who dares to breach my personal space.
last chair sat in: office chair
last lipstick used: burt's bees color nutmeg
last shirt worn: blue t-shirt
last poster looked at: huh? i saw an orlando bloom poster at kmart the other day,
last webpage visited: amazon.com
current clothes: blue t-shirt and blue striped pajama bottoms
current mood: t-i-r-e-d, remember?
current music: andie macdowell
current taste: d.i.e.t. p.e.p.s.i. -_-
current hair: reddish brown. bob. a bit messy and flippy.
current smell: cucumber-melon lotion
current thing I should be doing: unpacking
current desktop picture: mary grandpre illustration of harry potter and remus lupin
1. What do you most like about your body? my hair
2. And least? my stomach
3. How many fillings do you have? a lot. it is all the diet pepsi and bottlecaps.
4. Do you think you're good looking? no
5. Do other people tell you that you're good looking? just the ones who love me
ARE YOU...
Understanding: i try to be
Open-minded: yes
Arrogant: sometimes
Insecure: hideously
Interesting: no
Random: i think mandarin oranges are kind of gross, but i like just about any other citrus.
Hungry: no, actually i feel a little sick
Friendly: yes
Smart: sometimes
Moody: sometimes
Independent: yes
Hard working: when i'm interested in the work, or when someone expects me to be working
Organized: in theory more than in practice
Healthy: yes
Emotionally Stable: more so now than in a little while
Shy: oh yes
Difficult: intermittently
Attractive: not unattactive
Bored Easily: no
Messy: sometimes
Thirsty: almost always
Responsible: depends on who you're asking
Obsessed: not at the moment
Angry: ditto
Sad: always, somewhere in the background
Happy: usually, somewhere in the background
Hyper: no
Trusting: yes and no
Talkative: not in the least
What does your name mean? beautiful ceremonial attendant by white water
How old are you? 35
How old are you mentally (as in are you mature?)? no one over the age of 30 should have to answer this question.
How long does it take you to get ready in the morning? 45 minutes if i have to take a shower, 30 if i don't. this includes all pet-related activities.
SLEEP
Do you dream at night? sometimes
Do you remember your dreams? rarely
Describe one. i can't remember any right now!
What time do you go to bed usually? between 12 and 1
What time do you wake up normally? between 6 and 7
What time do you wake on weekends? about 8
Do you find waking late nice or annoying? NICE but it hardly ever happens, any more
Do you sleep with one pillow or two? one for my head, one along my back or side
FRIENDS
Do you have heaps of friends? no
Do you have a best friend? mmmaybe
Do you have more guy friends or more girl friends? i used to have more guy friends, but now it's almost all girls
Do you ever get annoyed at any friends? certainly
Have you ever lied to a friend? yes :/
Have you ever stolen a friends boyfriend/girlfriend? hahaha, as if i would be capable
MORALS
Have you ever been drunk? yes
Stolen? from the office yes what can i say i am addicted to that white-out tape
Shoplifted? when i was four or five
Tried to commit suicide? no
Lied to a boyfriend or girlfriend? no
Gotten into a fight? not since my brother grew taller than me :s
Would you date a drug addict? i don't even know how to go about meeting one
Have you ever had to look after someone who was a drug addict? yes--a drunk, anyway
Are you racist? i like to think i am not
Are you discriminatory to anyone? ditto
Have you been a hypocrite in the past? yes
MEDIA
Do you watch tons of tv? not tons, no.
How many times have you been to the movies in the past 6 months? not as often as i'd like to've
Do you listen to the radio often? yes, in the car and i listen to radio tradescant at work. it is nice, having your own radio station.
Do you read the newspaper? online, yes, and sunday, yes
Do you read magazines? yes
Are you a couch potato? yes
Do you use the internet too much? yes
MUSIC
What's your fave style of music? i like lots, but i guess americana. or maybe "indie" which surely covers a lot of ground.
Do you play an instrument? tambourine :D
Do you sing? not in public. except for "don gato," of course
PERSONALITY
Are you funny or serious? serious
Creative? sometimes
Logical thinker orlateral thinker? depends.
Are you outgoing or shy? shy.
Are you lazy or active? lazy. Haven't I answered these?
Have you ever been hyperactive? no!
Are you a naturally hyperactive person? n-o!!
LOOKS
Are you happy with the way you look? eh.
What would you change? oh where to start? my weight, i guess.
Do you wear makeup regularly? yes, but very light makeup. powder, mascara, lip balm.
Do you have a large wardrobe? embarrassingly so
MONEY
Do you have a job? yes, i have two
Do you like it? yes, mostly
Are you a saver or a spender? more spendy than savey, i think, but i'm not excessive in either direction
Do you work hard or slack off? depends
Have you ever been fired? yes--or laid off, anyway
In trouble at work? yes
Made a major mistake? at work? yes
Ever had money stolen from you? yes
EMBARRASSING MOMENTS
Your all time most embarrassing moment? too many to count!
Ever giggled like an idiot? all the time
Ever embarassed yourself and pretended nothing happened? nah, i usually just laugh about it
Ever tripped in front of someone you liked? when have i not done this? if i ever meet you, i will trip in front of you, sooner or later.
Ever said something really stupid? all the time
Ever snorted while laughing? yes
Ever fallen off a bed? yes
Ever sleepwalked? yes, apparently
Ever sleeptalked? so i'm told
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Date: 2005-04-07 03:07 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2005-04-07 03:39 am (UTC)it would be embarrassing, but I'm mostly resigned to it now.
Exactly! It used to be much more humiliating, making a jackass of myself--but this is one of the best things about getting older, that you just don't give nearly as much of a fuck.
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Date: 2005-04-07 03:28 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2005-04-07 03:41 am (UTC)LOVE YOU TOO <333333333333
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Date: 2005-04-07 03:55 am (UTC)Please look into starting a radio-tradescant affiliate in the New York City area. It is a large market, after all. Also, I hope you are making an explodingdog moodtheme.
it will be all explodingdog, all the time, around here.
Date: 2005-04-07 04:28 am (UTC)And here, for you, is my NY affiliate. I hope the link brings you to the right place.
http://music.yahoo.com/launchcast/station.asp?u=1440061871