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constanceLet's have one, shall we?
Pick as many as you like, and I'll answer to the best of my humble ability. :)
01. My sexual orientation.
02. What I'm really bad at.
03. The one person who isn't my SO whose arms I'd like to be in.
04. My best first date.
05. A description of my self-esteem.
06. Who my best friends are.
07. My favorite book.
08. Biggest turn-offs.
09. A description of my best friend.
10. My favorite animal.
11. Someone I miss.
12. What I want to change about myself.
13. What I did yesterday.
14. My greatest achievements.
15. My favorite songs right now.
16. A description of my best kiss.
17. What I find attractive.
18. All of the pets I've ever owned.
19. My favorite ice cream flavor.
20. The one place I wish I was right now.
21. The most cruel thing anyone has ever said to me.
22. All of the places I've lived.
23. Qualities that make me more likely to love a person.
24. My future plans.
25. One of my internal conflicts.
26. What I'm doing tomorrow.
27. My life's aspirations.
28. My proudest moment.
29. Two of my insecurities.
30. What I would do if I won the lottery.
31. What I love most about myself.
32. My biggest pet peeves.
33. What musical artists I've seen live.
34. How many kids I would like to have.
35. My idea of a perfect date.
36. What I'm really excellent at.
37. My most traumatic experience.
38. Where I would like to live.
39. The nicest thing anyone's ever said to me.
40. Whether I like where I live now.
41. What I can hear right now.
42. My relationship with my siblings.
43. What's currently worrying me the most.
44. Something I've repeatedly wished for.
45. My relationship with my parents.
46. What I dislike most about myself.
47. The next thing I'm doing in fandom.
48. One fandom wish.
Pick as many as you like, and I'll answer to the best of my humble ability. :)
01. My sexual orientation.
02. What I'm really bad at.
03. The one person who isn't my SO whose arms I'd like to be in.
04. My best first date.
05. A description of my self-esteem.
06. Who my best friends are.
07. My favorite book.
08. Biggest turn-offs.
09. A description of my best friend.
10. My favorite animal.
11. Someone I miss.
12. What I want to change about myself.
13. What I did yesterday.
14. My greatest achievements.
15. My favorite songs right now.
16. A description of my best kiss.
17. What I find attractive.
18. All of the pets I've ever owned.
19. My favorite ice cream flavor.
20. The one place I wish I was right now.
21. The most cruel thing anyone has ever said to me.
22. All of the places I've lived.
23. Qualities that make me more likely to love a person.
24. My future plans.
25. One of my internal conflicts.
26. What I'm doing tomorrow.
27. My life's aspirations.
28. My proudest moment.
29. Two of my insecurities.
30. What I would do if I won the lottery.
31. What I love most about myself.
32. My biggest pet peeves.
33. What musical artists I've seen live.
34. How many kids I would like to have.
35. My idea of a perfect date.
36. What I'm really excellent at.
37. My most traumatic experience.
38. Where I would like to live.
39. The nicest thing anyone's ever said to me.
40. Whether I like where I live now.
41. What I can hear right now.
42. My relationship with my siblings.
43. What's currently worrying me the most.
44. Something I've repeatedly wished for.
45. My relationship with my parents.
46. What I dislike most about myself.
47. The next thing I'm doing in fandom.
48. One fandom wish.
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Date: 2011-11-18 03:02 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2011-11-19 12:19 am (UTC)It was in New Orleans, in my mid-twenties. He was a coworker, and I was giving him a ride home, and as we were walking back to the car (parked in Clinton Alley, one of the few free, non-residential places to park in the French Quarter, and there's a free Protip for you, assuming that this is still true) and we were talking about photography, and he grabbed my hand and pulled me around without much warning. I have no real idea what precipitated it. Like most first kisses, it was a little tentative and awkward, but we hit our stride pretty quickly. His hands were cool and cupping my jaw just under my ears, and his five-o-clock shadow (or really, more like his midnight shadow) scritched my face, and it wasn't too wet (that's a turnoff for me), and we stood there kissing for a long time, and it was incredibly good. He was my first and best friend-with benefits, by the way; it never got unwieldy or unbalanced. We really liked each other, shared a similar perspective on sex, and it just worked, right from that beginning.
One of my internal conflicts.
My very biggest one, I think, is this: It is almost impossible to make myself believe that people love me, even in the face of indisputable evidence that this is true. I said once in another place that this is the peculiar form my self-loathing takes; I like myself, but I have trouble believing that others could conceivably feel that way too.