I'm thinking that maybe I shoulda saved last year's Christmas mix tape for this year.

[constance]

Christmas and me. We are having a hard time this year. I wouldn't go so far as to say I'm ready to break up with Christmas or anything. Just, I guess we're at that point where we stare at each other over the dinner table and we're not saying anything to each other, and I am wracking my brain trying to think of anything to say, anything, no matter how inane, because if we loved each other wouldn't we have something to say, but all I can think of is how did we get here, because I can remember that I used to love you, but I can't really get myself to remember what that was like, and the idea that I'm stuck now for better or for worse and the better seems long gone is making me kind of crabby and disillusioned.

Um, this is my fancy way of saying that maybe I am a little stalled out on the Christmas cards for lack of proper holiday spirit. But you will get cards! Because unlike my feelings for Christmas, my feelings for you are free from resentful nostalgia. They will maybe be Happy New Year Cards, though, or possibly free-form Man I Sure Am Glad You're Around cards. I hope that's okay. Is that okay?

Comments

[resonant]

One year I was so far behind that my Christmas card list got valentines instead. Or, hey, the first day of spring is a nice occasion to send cards.

[constance]

My thoughts exactly.

Hey, you've been on my mind this week! I'm having a little mini-reread of dS fic, and man, I do love your stories. Isn't it wonderful, rediscovering stuff you haven't read in years? I think it is, anyway.