Assholatry

[constance]

When I step out on my friendslist, and I'm sorry to say that I occasionally do, there are a few blogs I visit regularly. Most of those blogs are written by people think I'd probably like very much if we ever met up in the real world (not that we ever will, since I'm much too shy to do more than lurk on any of their journals), but not everyone is part of that subset. There are a few blogs I'm ambivalent to; the writing's excellent and they're fascinating and funny people, but there's something repellent about them too. If I were ever to meet any of these people, I'd want desperately to escape them, and possibly to escape them by rendering them unconscious with a large heavy thing, within minutes of meeting them.

And yet I keep visiting them. I keep reading their blogs. I keep being in turns repelled by and attracted to them. I experience this phenomenon in real life as well, and on the whole I find it a little disconcerting, a little embarrassing. I privately call it my tendency to assholatry, and I could give you some psychological particulars as to why this particular condition, but you don't care, and really, I'm just curious to see if any of you feels that dichotomic, complicated fascination for a blog, for a celebrity, for a real life person.

Comments

[kickthebeat.livejournal.com]

i am almost always most attracted to people i initially hate with a burning vengeance. it's upsetting, it really is! i think i get so emotionally caught up in hating people, it turns to some twisted sort of attraction? i don't know, some of my friends have labeled it my propensity to attract dickheads, but several painfully insightful people have told me -- other things they think it means, that mostly come down to me being a bad person. it's awesome.


YOU ARE NOT ALONE. however, i love you, and you love me? so, yeah, you have a thing for assholes, i'm sorry.

[tofty.livejournal.com]

Oh, Keri, I love you because you're an outlaw, not an asshole. If you are a bad person, you overcome your handicap very well, my friend. <3<3<3<3

I'm still more attracted to the people I like from the start than to the people I'm ambivalent to -- but I can't deny that I'm attracted to the assholes too. You'd think there'd be some instinct for self-preservation that would send us running and screaming from these people. But there doesn't seem to be. :/