constance | *gets out #2 pencil and scantron* (Reply)

I'm attending a seminar three days this week, for work. Or, really it turns out to be not so much three days of sitting half-asleep and getting out of real work as it is a certification class to write and understand a peculiar type of ultra-regulated loan so that we can program it properly in our software. And so today, my day was full of refund calculations and percentage factors and is-it-a-renewal-or-is-it-a-dual questions. Today was the math day, tomorrow is the law day, Thursday we review and test.

I haven't done anything like this, take notes and do homework and study and test, for about ten years. And considering the fact that nothing is really resting on this--not my job, not a grade, not a permanent record--I can't help but buckle down to it as though everything did. Gone are the days when I blew off homework to go sit on the law school steps for an impromptu picnic; I am determined to do really well on this, and so as soon as I finish this, I'm off to do homework.

It's too bad I didn't wait till now to go to college, I keep thinking. I'd have done really spectacularly well.